My 00.00 A.M thoughts

Isolated.
Sometimes become a desire of mine.
Being alone,
far away from another human.

Or maybe just leave the city.
The country.
Starting a new life with no one.
Living my life with my self.
Alone.

It's just sometimes.
I wanna be apart with everyone.
Feel bad about my self.
I deserve no one.
Don't want to hurt them.
Don't want to make them disappointed.
Feel so evil.

Confuse is all i have in my head.
Questioning an important and unimportant thing.
Unsure about reality.
Believe in non-sense thing.
Became a wandering soul.
Craving for something they don't understand.
Looking for a thing that doesn't even exist.
Not sure if it's just a dream, or fcking real?

Brain can't stop thinking.
Late at night.
It's running.
Producing some weird and negative thought.
While me as a human, can't control my own thought.
Either being controlled by my brain.

A deep thought.
Curious.
Anxious.
Confuse.
Desperate.
Hurt.
Disappointed.
Sad.
Accepting.
Happy.
In one shot.

What a sentimental night.
I love the night.
No one can interrupted you to have a conversation,
with your self.
With your soul.
Questioning your soul.
"Are you me, or someone else?"
Trying to figure out,
if you have the same mission in life with your soul.

Keep up the conversation.
Until you get lost.
In your imagination.
Convert it into a dream.
Where you don't really have to think.
And just let your dream leads you.

Into the morning.
The time to wake up.
Find your consciousness back.
Without any random thought.
Just an empty mind.
That has been reset.
So fresh to accept the reality.
Accept that you can't go back to sleep.
And you have to repeat the same routinity.
Everyday.